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Writing Prompt: Can’t Stand Me

What do you find more unbearable: watching a video of yourself, or listening to a recording of your voice? Why?

Both are equally unbearable. When I watch myself or listen to myself it is like fingernails on a chalkboard. I am judging and editing and wondering why I didn’t move that one hair to the left or right. What is that on my nose? Is that something in my teeth? I shouldn’t have worn that color, it doesn’t work well on camera. Basically, I feel like Bobo the Clown.

Above is a picture of myself electronically placed inside a clown outfit. I feel this way when I watch or listen to myself. I’m super critical of everything. In audio, I sound like a little girl that still has yet a few years before maturity sets in. In video I am sometimes too animated and at other times like a lifeless brown blob, in addition to all the other criticisms I have of myself.

I suppose at some point I need to get over it. In the meantime, I’m Bobo.